- 7:38 PM

morning went jp for breakfast, then adjust my specs. bought a "necklace". dunno what it's call actually. nvm though. anyway, when reach home. i draw what i want my clothes to be for next yr de chinese new year. LOL. weird huh i... so long start to plan liao. one would be black pants, with a chain side ways. a black[polo]tee with white shirt inside. haha. like sy always wear that kind of style when we go out. but this idea came a long long time ago. then when ytd see gugu wear like this, man i like it very much. then with the whole set of clothes, i gonna wear this "necklace". im such a copy cat =P

dinner went to yew tee shopping centre. saw someone from 2-7[zb's class]. remember the last time i went is on 2 may. i made a mistake the whole time. our silent break was on 2 may........, if im NOT wrong, and i hope im not. the last time he said the three words was also on 2 may, but at 3.28am. he offically dun like me is on 10 july. it's over, i noe. what i type on my msn nick, i mean it. i wan to noe the ans that i wish to noe.......

- 8:48 PM

today went to gugu's salon. open for just a few weeks only. quite small. cut my fringde.now very short[side parting now, no more center]. but nvm, that LKK has no more reason to say my fringde is long, though only sae once. stay there for abt 3 hours. wanted to ask gugu to help me tie my hair with my hair, that means no need to use the rubber band. but becos my hair too soft, cannot. then that kor kor[my gugu dunno how, so ask her helper] try tieing my hair into a bun. put a stick through the bun. LOL. those jap kind de. but, hair soft. so too bad...... sad, but kind of glad my hair is SOFT! hahax.

proud of my art work. to me it's one of my master pieces. if compare to michelle's, my is just like average! she is so so damn pro in drawing. the artist in my class. not only drawing, but shadin also!hmm........ everything la. wish got her hands.

anyways, settle with my news specs already. leaving the old one "behind". what crap.......... tmr going to adjust the new and fix the old one. suppose to go after going to gugu's salon. but becos dad had to attend a funeral, so couldnt make it. even though i have not met the person who passed away[my dad's fren de brother], i felt really really very sad. felt like crying when my dad sent us back home. only 40............. not accident. it's becos of..... some........some kind.... argh.. whatever.

- 7:01 PM

had the audition today. didnt go. dunno if im even allow to see. anyways, it's in the AVA room. probably would be crowded with people and prefects. wish them luck... though it's already over. hope u guys would be able to perform. hs also! =))

tmr no have training at concord. first time im glad. dun wan see vanessa. that van, i hate her. early beginning in the year she said that she would wan to come to every training session, dun wanna miss one. now like she has to eat her own words. i think i wouldnt want to go to concord again. very sian, and besides, i dun wanna teach. but becos of one reason, i had to go. ahhhh.

got the new specs ytd. but didnt wear it to school today. need some adjustments. very uncomfortable. i look so nerdy!! my frens all said i look better in the new one than the old one. but i dun tink so.... haizx..

- 6:56 PM

today's sarah's birthday! but she never tell me..... T-T cos it's her 13 birthday.. haha

During assembly[before school] :

Iris got some peeps to write sth on a birthday card for Sarah. Include Edwin's i think =D Then DM came onto the "stage" and announce sth. it's abt a lady call ms lee who called the school at 5+ ytd evening. she said that a gal from rgt help her to pick her wallet up even though she's not boarding that train. and the gal is none other than liu ya xin from 1-5!!! jiayi they all like went "woo" and clap hands. haha.

Walking back to classroom :

Geraldine started a cheer for yaxin. the yaxin oie! then everyone went oie~!

Classroom:

Sarah found 2 presents on her chair from michelle and geraldine, if im not wrong. one of the presents is a small bottle of dead ants, which i THINK is from michelle. gd idea for a present. sarah wasnt angry. just abit like.. kinda surprise[she kept it. LOL.] then geraldine start another cheer[i think. haha] for yaxin again. anyways, back to the present. haha. is mangoes. wrap in newspaper and had two dots. looks like AHEM to me. very funny. then everyone sang a brithday song to her. very loud. the best birthday so far ever since the first one. bet i can nv have this kind of birthday. can only wish. anyways, if i am able to celebrate my birthday with my kor, that would be enough, though i think it's like asking too much... since we are just....... frens.... no.. god siblings...

had a great time at tkd. jessica's there.

- 5:31 PM

Don't want to post actually. But i just go ahead, since im dead bored.

I bet i have the least merit points for the girls now. Wouldnt want to type reason out. TOO ashamed of myself. Won't blame her, since it's my fault in the first place to take it out. whatever. T-T

Sad to say, dad probably wouldn't be able to take my spectacles tomorrow. Too busy with work i guess. Been coming back later than usual after got promoted.

Wished i had not got that position for level and class last term. It's stressing me out now. ALOT.

Probably reading the Harry Potter book later.Left about 10 chapters, but to others that is way TOO TOO slow. Hahax. Surprisingly, Adelle only took 3 hours plus to read finish the whole book. AMAZING. For the Order of Phoenix, she ONLY took 5 hours plus.

- 2:39 PM

now im over half of the book liao. very interesting. but hs still read faster than me....... T-T cos look at the way i reading. hopefully, i would be able to finish the rest of the 200+ pages within today[which i think i am not able to do it.. lol]
ytd went to buy a wallet. yes, i've mention it in my blog many many times. same pattern as winnie's, but different color. then before that went to make a new specs. actually uncle edward thought of leaving my specs over there at the shop for a few days so that he could change a new frame for me[it's a must to change, or i duno what wil happen to my specs]. but i dont have extra specs. so have to make a new one. its like of pink. yes, PINK. half frame specs. then the side ways the thing is thick. the cost to make this specs is more expensive than my currently one. more by 8 bucks. but nvm, i love my new specs ALOT. cant wait to wear it. no increase in degrees, or.... did, just by25. 2 yrs plus liao still within the range of 300-400. but nv exceed 400. looks like my eyes finally settle down. i mean, the degrees. anyways, my brother also tried. wanted a half frame or framless. but look at the way he handle his specs[he leaves them ANYWHERE.], he couldnt get a frameless. but when he tried on the half frame black specs, he really looks...................gd. too bad he dont trust me. whatever. the black part was very thick. thickness like those lao gu dong de specs...

- 11:37 AM

knew who is the half blood prince already. frens told me. but this makes it kind of not really very "interesting" to continue reading since i know who is it. anyways, i also know what happen to Dumbledore's hand. i mean, what has caused his hand to become injured. ytd had to read The House of Gaunt the second time. couldnt understand. cos was like so boring and didnt have the interest to read that part.

later going jurong point then east coast park. cant wait.. =))

- 6:07 PM

it's not nice having "FUN" with those guys. do they have to always pick on me? what have i done? hy, sc,yb, they have gone too far. dunno for what reason, hy is LOOKING for a quarrel with me. i didnt give in and keep quiet. quarrel then quarrel lah. SHUI PA SHUI. end of lessons before CL enrichment, yb took my pens, AS USUAL, and ask me to say please before he will return me my pens. im not so stupid to say "please" he said that he has difficulties having to ask me to say please to him. well, TOO BAD. fine, take my pens. not enough horx..? take my sketch book. open it, papers fell out. hy then pass by, want to step i think. then sc said " gan gan ta lah" and STEP. MY PAPER U GO STEP HORX!? i had enough and couldnt take this lying low anymore. i shouted at yb[whole class can hear, im sure] and ask him to return my pens. wo ren gou le. they finally saw the fierce side of me, but that is not my 100% fierce. then sc said " hot liao. hot liao." he returned my pens, one by one. they create the mess YET i had to clean them. i began to cry a little. too angry till cry. think i easy to bully izzit..? i tell you guys horx, NO. dun see i youngest in class and a gal can bully. i will give u guys a punch right in the middle of your faces if i can. GO TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!

ms lee dye her hair to those red color. the color my mom dyed her hair to when she perm them. slowly de color will fade to brown....

- 9:01 PM

today had maths test. didn really study for it. anyways, nvm abt that. there's this one qn. i noe how to do it. somehow, becos of what the last sentence in bracket de, tried to "fool" me. becos of that, i lost one mark. !! then there's this another qn which consists of three marks. bye bye. wrong answer. haizx. then before that was chemistry. nice lesson, cos mr heng teachin us. he set up experiments abt the different techniques of seperating what. forgot xD. the best experiment/s so far was the distillation and fractional distillation. so cool. finally done the cross hatching for art. faster do them better. saturday going jurong point to make new specs[my specs is like out of shape ever since my bro hit right on my right face. specs then bend to nearly 90 degrees.]and also buy wallet! man, i definitely noe how to spend money. then evening or late afternoon going to east coast park to eat CRABS!!! haha. idea's mine. at first suggested going to PU. but say need spend money when take a boat there, and as if like singapore cannot eat crabs, must go all the way over there. ok lor, then decide to go east coast park. cant wait. wil take framless specs again. probably getting a plastic de. but kind of.. weird when tried it on at the shop downstairs.

"ren, wang wang jiu shi zhe yang, bu dong de zen xi ji you de dong xi, deng dao shi qu de shi hou cai jue de ke xi." this sentence find it really very meaningful. teacher said to memorise that line from ke ben. actually it refers to the lights on the street[dunno u guys remember anot], but it applies to me, myself. my love life. i thought i had given up on him, but im wrong. once start to love a person, so difficult to let him/her go.i noe i should forget him cos he doesnt return the same feelins i have for him anymore, but i seem to not being able to do it. my life had completely changed when i first like him. just start from a 0.1%. i become a real happy person. i love everyone. but somehow i dun feel it anymore. it's like.. the whole world's against me. my guy frens began to INSULT me, lowering my self esteem[which i have brought it to a very high lvl] and bullying me. i cant stand it anymore. guys in 1-5 suxs. they indeed noe nth abt FEELINS. dun tell me they no feelings and just say what they like...? and today during recess. what do my gal frens whom i call best frens take me as for..? time to go back classroom leave me alone with mie mie's, yaxin's and matthew's things..? lucky its just papers and pencil cases, or i will never be able to bring them back. just walk away eh..? i carried so many things, then matthew's pencil case drop onto the floor. well, mie mie laughed. mad i was of course. couldn believe it. leave me alone to take their things without a helping a hand...

- 4:40 PM

today start cooking class. make popcorn. lame. but me and jiayi are a total failure. not sweet one. T-T but nvm. first try. i will score better in the next time round! haha(but not funny).
mie mie read the harry potter book till abt 20+ chapter le. during weekend whole day read. i only still stuck at chapter 4 i think. the horace slughorn. dunno if it's even chapter four anot. haizx.. hopeless.. and today mr heng teach chemistry. learn abt filltration, then forgot liao... xD must improve on memory.

- 5:42 PM

just now watch one chinese show. dun think it is a drama. ending the part i cry. so touching. it's abt a couple, who gave birth to two kids who are not healthy. then they two meet with a mishap, got to scarifice cheng cheng[the boy] for an an[the gal].. actually dun wana lose two de. but got no choice. if wan both, doubt an an would be alive. then the whole place[the place they stay]was like.. everyone know abt these two kids. when they knew that cheng cheng left them, they each gave a flower. so sad. then that time i think again.

felt heartache. so pain and sad. i couldnt bring myself to think that he would be in the arms of another gal in future. the feelin is killing me. ren wu ke ren de gan jue........ and besides, no one would wanna care if i still like him or not..... cos it's my own business......

- 10:45 PM

i treating the harry potter book like my life lai dat.. read the first chapter liao.. so so de chim. read two times. second time le, like still dun understand. but at least better le. adult version. black color. my fav. color. but im not so nuts abt black like sarah donna nanayakara[i think her surname rocks. so long]
bro just came back from the national day thingy. he chose a green bag. like sling bag de, since it's on the side when carry. it suxs lor. worse than last time my that 2003 de bag. each year de getting uglier. then got the coupon. got handphone. bro show me two nokia phone de. one is i think ys and jonathan[cousin] that kind de.. another one the latest de..? i asked my mom. she said i can change to the new hp when the plan thingy ends or whatever[i just couldnt understand what all this plan thingy, trade in whatever is abt]. i mean.. not my LG de. someone else. i greedy hor. cos i still find nokia de bi jiao hao.
just now watch parent trap on disney channel. i like that show alot. hallie and annie were like... sososososo cute.mom say i watch that show like........ very interested lai dat. cant help it.. haha

- 12:59 PM

so so happy. must be nuts to post so early. but.... i got the harrypotter and the half blood prince book! adult verison lehx.. cool sia... cant wait to read it..... harry potter and the half blood prince!! lala!!! happy happy.. siao ding dong dong dong

- 9:23 PM

what's the matter with this world!? where has the love gone to!? why say dun like then dun like, why say want break when dun love the person le then break!? they dun give a damn abt the feelings of these ppl who got hurt in this kind of thing, though it's still the best. i wanna tell *****qa if she readin this.. treasure him. dun wait until he officially dun like you already then start weeping or anything. i can see u still do like/love him. get back with him. be happy. treasure him before it's too late. may sound crap to you, but it isnt.
there shouldnt be anything call love, if it means of getting someone hurt. argh... whoever invented the word love or WHATEVER.. go to hell. and i dun ever wish to meet u in heaven or hell.. u brought nth but unhappiness..
i dunno what im going to do... think going to cry.... again. for myself, him, him, and............

- 4:52 PM

wa lau. today ms low sibeh de what lor. what an unreasonable bitch. so what money matters are important..? for the sake of fifty cents, do u have to give TWO DEMERIT POINTS to him!? two demerit points is ALOT. u noe what is alot? u like giving demerit points izzit? u sai kang. go to hell. then give one merit point to ivan for TAKING THE INITATIVE TO CHANGE THE FIVE CENTS INTO WHAT DUMB COINS. noe what the money is for? for some classroom business. suxs. decorate classroom or buy new broom? whatever, and i dun give a damn about it. then isaac told me sth very funny[he's been siting behind as long as we are in the same class. last time enemies, now frens. cool huh. classmates for few years le.] he wished that osama would bomb ms low house. then ms low would say," i give u two demerit points ah." then she always give that stupid smile of hers. and today then i realised sth. stimes she would open her eyes BIG BIG de. scary de lorx. then she will occasionally step on her toes and down. for no reason give ppl merit and demerit. 50+ yrs old le.retire lah! no children to yang ni sim si!?hmph!
no comments for the rest of day. just..........dun wana say. or i forgot le.

- 8:46 PM

been four days. four days. he's out of his own problem..? gd huh. it's getting wilder everytime i go his blog. suxs. one word. i cant stand it anymore. duno if still wan to go to concord tmr or not. dun wan to see him. i better get out of this mess if i wan to be the-real-happy again. dun understand why i am still refusing to get out. i mean, i will be alot happier than now right? i refused to forget him, or give up on him, or whatever. everytime talk of msn i will start to think abt what happen on 10 july. abt one yr liao. T-T im making myself more worthless, stupider by thinking I STILL GOT CHANCE. what nonsense.

- 5:32 PM

thanks sy.. for giving me the code for the jukebox

today had alot of fun in school. even there is no tkd.. well.. nvm. had assembly too. early in the morning yibin started to threw staple leads right at me! for what i dunno.. geography lesson went out of classroom to observe the clouds. which totally is like shit. couldnt hear what mrs choo was saying. whole class noisy. science ms lee didnt come. today last day of bio. kind of sad. mr heng relieve our class. whole class was in chaos btt it was recess. canteen had very little ppl cause the sec 2s had their camp. maths lesson got another sticker. which means im one of the top who got the most stickers for term three. but so far only got 2. assembly got opera. which more than half of the performance i was laughing. one reason was that the class joker and the class joker 2 was sitting right behind me and jiayi. they were talking crap all the way. when came to the part where the two of them were fighting, xue jin said," ta men bu yao lian" then i started to laugh. cause one of them was having a bare front, which shows his..... ahem.. on top de lah. then another show one of his... ahem.so funny. i was glad that i had forgotten him for the time being, for if not i wouldnt be laughin like shit. then after the opera, there's those old folks singing a canto song. forgot what song. but we were like all encouraging them or sth. *clap clap* haha.. some of them even went "woooo".. i did that too.. lol. kind of fun. but while walking home, felt the empty feeling inside again. when will i be able to fill this emptiness with sth else instead..? im afraid.... afraid that it would happen again.
*u dun have to turn the clock/time backwards if u want reality time to go back again. just have to make it happen again, if possible

- 8:57 PM

empty!!! i feel dead empty inside my heart. i feel so cold.. emotionally and physically. empty.. e-m-p-t-y. E-M-P-T-Y. and now almost every love sad song, i began to cry again. then those sad memories would start to come back. i dunno what i going to do now. live each day with an empty heart..? or searching for another sun..? but even so, the new sun wouldnt be as warm as the previous one.....
[stupid sarah donna draw on my hand, knee and elbow with her black pen. still got the lines... gonna get back at her tmr...]

- 4:55 PM

i somehow felt real empty inside when i get happier. empty inside heart[someone said this before, finally realised how he felt last time]. then my mood would go down. it happen again and again.

today p.e play badminton again. didnt bring my racket, afraid that if i bring, i would be the only one. and besides, i cannot afford to spoil or lose such an expensive racket. parents would kill me. mie mie got hit twice by syafiqa[last week got hit once] then now she got her retribution. her fingers. kena smack by teddy bear. the badm boy in class.

love isnt a great thing. and i will hate love for life. it suxs!! it brought nth but happiness into my life. and now, not even one "hi" from him first. is it so difficult? i've just completely vanish from his life like dat. i've lost my sun. lost. this sun is gone after one yr. i love my sun so much yet i've lost it within a NIGHT. night!!!!!!!!! my sun is the first in everything. family, friends, relatives. right now my feelings are overwhelming. and u ppl stop asking me to give up!!!!!! i hate you guys!!! it's painful enough already!! u all always see my happy face but in fact im NOT one bit happy inside. my world's dead.

My world died on 10 july after it has lost her Sun.

that night, i was holding my crystals, trying to get myself to sleep. when u are in love and the person returns you the same feelings, u will feel somehow u are lucky in everything. and when happy, u will feel the real happy. the real happy feelins are really warm, the feeling everyone would want to wish for. but its totally the opposite when u have just lost him or her. u felt real empty inside. and no matter how happy u are, u just couldnt find the happy u are looking for. u felt real cold. u lost your sun, your world is dead, and u feel the end of world. that's how i feel now. and as i complete this post, tears ran down my cheek........

- 4:22 PM

i today realised sth. dreams are the opposite of reality. true. i once dreamt of us holding hands. we didnt[let alone being together]. i once dreamt he shouted " i love you". he didnt. i once dream i was in mr wong's H.E class. it didnt happen. i was in ms sng class. sad huh.

ytd nite before i went to bed i cried. in sch i cried. english lesson, home econs and maths i cried. while coming back home i cried. and today in sch, i've been hurt to the extend. still have room for more insults, but me myself i cant take it anymore. i've nv been hurt in two places at once before.. heart i cant take it anymore already. im crying like shit, what else does god want me to be hurt in..? im starting to hate love. love isnt a great thing. i rather be a nun than to fall in love IF i were to get hurt again. the same way. [ difficult to reminisce those happy memories ]

i wrote shi bai in my student diary. my fren still wan to thank him for making me cry. guys. u can NEVER understand them. those stupid ppl who insulted me are also guys. they[i mean my class.. never point to anyone else other than that] know nth bout the word call feelings.. all they ever noe is TALK and make ppl laugh in a BAD WAY. guys in 1-5 suxs. and i hate them to the core.

SHI BAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHI BAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!

- 7:36 PM

just now had a chat with him. it wasnt good. i wept while msging him. i wept while i was bathing. not only that, while in toilet, i had my head on the wall while hand hitting the wall. i also look into the mirror and said," stop crying u bitch!" i hadnt cried that bad and bitterly for years.. ever since my grandfather passed away.. i do love him... i had not mistaken my feelins all this while.... (didnt finish my dinner also. less than half then threw it away)

cool huh. it should be head instead. felt life is totally meaningless. real meaningless. i thought that compared with my frens, im always luckier than them in this kind of thing. but i was wrong. A BIG WRONG. i've landed myself in this state, all my fault. i at first really very jian jue that i will not get myself into any relationship.. but after ytd nite, i thought hard, i realised i couldnt do that. my efforts will simply just go down the drain. but all said is pointless now. he and i are IMPOSSIBLE. i wonder if i am going to wept myself to sleep.. i wonder if i would wept when i see him again.. probably this wednesday. i now noe how my frens felt *when the person they love/like doesnt return them the same feelins anymore.* it means that they were once loved by the guy they love... if im not wrong they are still carryin a torch for them..
* - probably now happening to me

i couldnt bring myself to forget him. i've tried. but failed. not once, but many times. i dunno how long this will last, i mean the feelins i had for him. i really envy those who doesnt like anyone. the feelin of your heart being broken into pieces... it is so painful. very painful.... pain..ful....

- 4:59 PM

i noe how guo mei mei looks like le.. =))

- 12:22 PM

cant wait for the harry potter and the half blood prince to come out so i can get my hands on the book my mom had ordered for me!!!!!!!!!! and did i mention that i would be going to watch harry potter and the goblet of fire end of this yr!!!??? tickets free too i think! i so so cant wait........................................................ im such a great big fan of harry potter and j.k rowling.. haha.

i seriously think it's time for me to give him up. dunno why im still hanging on when i dun even noe anything.
BUT I WILL NOT JUST GIVE UP LIKE THIS. IF NOT ALL MY EFFORT OF WAITING WILL SIMPLY GO DOWN THE DRAIN. tell me, do u still like me..? i hope the ans is a yes......... and not just little bit of yes.. but alot......

cumulus clouds now. BUT i saw a cumulonimbus cloud! seriously. the sky now really is beautiful from the view of my bedrm window. if only... i can look at it forever.. and forget everything and him.....................

- 10:20 PM

dunno if still can remember today's happenings, cos now nite time liao.
during geography lesson, i got one merit point. for saying the five kind of spheres in the atmosphere or bla bla without hesitation.. =D cool huh. exosphere, thermosphere, mesosphere, stratosphere and troposphere. haha. then during MT do jian bao. about the si te le. hitler. those ppl all siao ding dong. fren say got regenites go there to dunno what. then if not wrong in the picture the person who holding the poster or whatever, is from regent. just because he shuai or sth then ba ta dang cheng ou xiang. they should open their eyes big big before making this kind of decision. then english lesson, as usual chao ji sian. lkk use her notebook again. yucks. maths lesson very fast pass. mr heng give me one star for explainin ytd the maths qn to whole class. then the boys not happy, start critising me. but nvm, i will REN... and i did it. then the last few mins. me, iris, sarah, adelle, and some gals and guys, we all rack our brains just for ONE maths qn. they guys do for the sick of getting a star, cause mr heng say the first three ppl who managed to find the ans to the qn gets a star. didnt work it out, and still blur blur lai dat when i got to noe the ans and working. haizx.. im hopeless, but i did my best. ok nvm. let's move on to tkd trainin at concord. sian at first. then blah blah. had to move to the parade square at 3.30. having volleyball in hall. then when nearly ending of trainin, those poom belt de wan learn pattern, so teach lor. but that stupid big mouth very de what lor. say what wait until they grow older then teach them. is his method of teaching wrong. suppose to face the same direction as them while teaching, but he faced the wrong side. in the end is i teach de most. nobody wans to learn from him, but from me.... =D i believe that as long as they want to learn and will put in their best effort to learn, they will succeed. im willing to teach them. but that big mouth say so much crap. say what no matter how many times we said they still dunno how to do. just tell and teach until they noe how to do lor. what so difficult..? dun understand him. went home after that, then in evening went to bp plaza. wanted to buy a wallet like winnie's. but dunno where to get.. haizx.. i really noe how to spend money.
- i may be looking at handsome guys now, but my heart will always and only be with someone.

- 6:32 PM

somehow i felt that when a person start to say vulgar words, he or she will go on and on, none stop, for years, until he/she finally decide to change. maybe not for years, probably for eternity.

- 3:03 PM

today in sch whole day want to sleep. probably because yesterday nite arguing with him, then when about to really fall asleep came his reply. few times. haha
let's start with first lesson. CME. the best-and-always-laugh-alot de lesson, yet i only think of wanting to sleep. 1-5.. a unique class??? LOL. then ms goh told us sth she said before. dunno got type here anot. but nvm. i will just type again ^^ one time when from school she look outside to the traffic light, she saw someone do bruce lee de kick. side kick. or whatever. first time she said side kick. then today said bruce lee de kick. not do once, but twice. so funny. and the person is none other than ivan chan. that pest. incorrigible. and when i said he's incorrigible, i mean it. then when comes to do workbk that time, yibin was like the whole time ka jiaoing me. he used the fake bee/ant and try to scare me by putting it on me. im notscared, but scared if it's on ME. then when i never return it to him, he used isaac pen poke me on my side. haizx. guys..... speaking of isaac, he didnt attend sch for the pass two days. reason: he went for inter schools sailing compeition. how cool is that!? i know that he has sailing compeition, but dunno what date, so didnt wish him good luck. T-T sailing compeition!!!!!!! so ccoooollll. but didnt win anything. said he came in last. but very gd liao. not all have the potential to saaaaiilll~~~~~~~
MT - sian English - MORE SIAN[cos it's lkk]
maths.. haizx. kena caught by mr heng for writing on my hand. he saw my ans, ask me to write on the transparency, and EXPLAIN TO THE CLASS!!! O.O""" haizx.. first time. T-T ok. lit - CHAO JI SIAN go home one o'clock. no CL enrichment. that's a gd thing. on the way back home in bus saw a guy. kind of handsome.. haha. but if compare, the guy last time fix my comp de still more handsome, or rather CUTER!!! ^^

- 6:13 PM

today... haiZx..
morning is geography. forgot that mrs choo said today will be having a self test[from workbook]. so never study. realised that i actually pay attention during lesson. cant help it, fav. subject. haha. but must admit, got alot to remember. science, whole time very interesting. know alot of things about smoking. btw, i very guai worxx.. =D

maths. the very first lesson with mr heng. good teacher. also first time be "teacher" to our partner. soon maths was over, then came MT. sian. most of the time i was playing with my mechanic pencil. turn here turn there. but still can only turn on direction. dun know want to do that homework anot. never do means will get scolding. got do means no scolding nia lor.. but never do still have to complete it what, sooner or later. literature. ZZZZZZZZ. ms rajoo lesson damn boring lor. always only confinde to bookS only. then lunch. canteen almost no ppl. cause we were released early. not really RELEASED early. but because ms rajoo had to attend to sth else, all no mood to continue liao. so all... no need say.. =) during literature, nicky, took his handphone out. dunno msg who. so hou lian pi. take out handphone during lesson. then very KPO ask syafiqa alot of qns bout her "fren". cause he was like waiting for her outside our classroom for more than half an hour.

during tkd being bully by mr lee!!! tmr sure become ben dan liao. T.T

- 4:26 PM

haha. today de day above average but haven reach to the point of great!! =D
let's start with music. played the same game as last week. got forfeit, some pupils including me. but lesson over teacher like forgot. haha. good. then during pe lesson we play badm. badm skills like still.. normal normal. but at least i noe that when i start ball, my surfing[or whatever], improve! really improve. got alot of confidence also. hahax.. then try smacking. can lor. but for me NOOB! if i hit the shuttlecock harder, sure got sound de. but then the racket so lousy.... the string so lousy. out of shape and all losen le. how to play..? but lucky, teacher say bring own racket if have. me bringing my that black wilson de. very expensive worx.. over 100.. so must careful. cannot restring the racket. cause dunno what still in good condition.. haiZx.. nvm.. play until pai then go restring. hahaX..
science[ms lee class.. dun worry. i never bully her. i very guai during the whole lesson worx~~ ^^]sian si le. want to sleep. start new chapter. smoking. haiZx.. nvm. then english lesson. like no lesson because of fire drill.. up to one oclock. lesson over.. haha. cool. whole time at the field me and frens all freaking like hell. dun dare to sit on the grass almost bout half an hour. ended up squating. saw spider, grasshopper, and criket?? ah.. got lots more. all scream.. haha...

- 5:51 PM

i dunno what im thinking now. i dun even noe what im feeling now. he's not telling me anything, and by that, he is slowing dashing my hopes. he's not in my shoes, he doesnt noe how i felt, and he will continue do what he's doing now. many things are in my mind, waiting to be confirmed so i can at least noe what to do. haha. im so stupid enough to think of confirming them.

i haven finish my hw. but it will be done in no time. just need to find some pictures and thats it. haven even pack my bag. haha. enjoying myself till forgot about sch. youth day. HAHA. what nonsense. it's not the kind of youth day im hoping. no celebration. nvm. donation..? no way. what kind of youth day this is..? i dunno abt other schs, but i noe that some schs have celebration. teacher's day's still about a month or so away. announcement got about teacher's day le. regent secondary school is biased.. teacher's day have celebration but not youth day. i dun care if there's a reason when no celebration for youth day. but cant they at least hold a SMALL CONCERT FOR US?? cannot expect us to be in classroom whole day and study when we should be having at least abit of fun..? ridiculous.

- 2:07 PM

my aunty has open her salon and yet i dun noe.. T.T

- 6:39 PM

erm.. maybe i've think too much... maybe not... haizx..

- 2:26 PM

his blog finally can hear the music.. couldnt tag his tagboard.. so decided to post it here... believe that he will read..

im suppose to be sleeping right now... but just couldnt go to sleep.. too many things in my mind.. i dunno what im thinking.. my age de now suppose to be concentrating on our studies right..? guess my mind and heart have brought me to a "very far place".. even if it's like this.. i will manage my time properly.. when it's time to study.. i will study.. but when i have free time.. i will let my mind do it's own thinking.. nvm if he doesnt like me anymore[ but of course i dun wan this to happen.. i will always wan to be in his heart.. the only one..].. nvm one.. just live with it... but i will still quietly like him de... he maybe still like me..? i didnt know it's so fragile.. didnt know what i've done[this hasnt got to do anything with the past]..

today concord de open house.. ok.. my kick is not HIGH enough.. but i've already tried my best.. and besides.. my calves are really hurting... for the past three days.. including today.. JUMP TOO MUCH ON THURSDAY.. haizx.. saw xinyu, victoria, joscelin, abigail, wei qin, jun da, caleb, haqiz[didnt talk to him since 30 march last yr..... some reason.. wan noe ask me.. BUT IM NOT RACIST JUST BECOS.............], joan[ne], and more of vanessa frens.........

wanna go out.. but dun feel like going out..rotting at home till cannot rot anymore.. i'll just be contented if my body is back at home.. and my soul is with him.. i must have meant nth to him now..

- 6:32 PM

better alot now. except that i still have my damn cough... today.. forgot had a great day or not. first it was art.. booorrriiinnnngg.. follow by geography. nice lesson. hm.. have atmosphere, lithosphere,biosphere, and..?hydrosphere. haha.. can remember.. good memory. and must keep it up =)) next is MT.. as if like never do jian bao will die. somemore must do two.. boring lor.. recess... then two periods of english.. this means lkk lesson.................T.T show off.. so what got new notebook? so what if it's nice? SHOW OFF. yesterday or two days ago we had to write a spontaneous writing on what we did during the holidays. ok. i did what she said. wrote two pages[one paper]. then start the real lesson. wrote some stinky story on animals. that's plain lame. didnt really put in effort. or should i say, i DIDNT put in effort to write a story. not really story, but few "sentences". then today she remembered that we were supposed to present them. and u know what we have to do..? type them out. where????????????? in her new notebook. show off. as if like cannot just read it out. matthew read his group one out, but after still need to type it out. use up so "much" time. maths. mr heng was there.. new teacher. and great news - no need to bring maths textbook. this means bag would be lighter. replacing ms koh and will be teaching us for one term starting from next week. the way he explained things... its so easy to understand.. though the first day he came into our class.. his face like very smelly. also like got panda eyes. as the saying goes"do not judge a book by it's cover" but i cant help it lor. cant help it. then it was contact time. finish le go concord. siao liao.. i drink the milo until vomit. first was coughing none stop. THEN vomit. face red red de when come out of the toilet. even my eyes. while practicing for the tmr performance body is so freaking hot.

forgot. gals have the rights to tell a teacher if someone touch her and make her feel very uncomfortable right..? today idiot nicky, dunno for what reason, put his hand on my SHOULDER and left it there. i was like so MAD and uneasy. trying to brush his hand away, he was like insisting on having his hand THERE. then when i asked him to help me to clean the whiteboard. he dun help.. well. awhile later lor. finish cleaning. he said to me that HE WAS DISAPPOINTED IN ME CAUSE I DUN ALLOW HIM TO PUT HIS HAND ON MY SHOULDER(he added:next time i cannot give u encouragment already. HE CAN JUST SAY IT OUT RIGHT? DUN NEED TO GO TO THE EXTEND AND TOUCH SOMEONE RIGHT??!!)... WHAT THE HECK!!!!???? HIS MIND IS FREAKING DIRTY AND HE'S SUCH A MOLESTER!!! for no reason, when he has the chance, he would start to like......dunno how to say.. some sort like touch a gal. and he's always mixing around gals. didnt accept his apology. he will do it again. no point forgiving. dun care if like my heart is METAL!!! i hate him. a secondary one MOLESTER.. got to hell..and once he tried massaging sarah's shoulder cause she was like - tired from decorating the notice board) O.O!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "lao" di gou

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dog; or
hamster; or
guinea pig as pet``
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